Monday, February 04, 2008

Musings...

(no, these aren't all mine...it is a mix of my kids, cousins and nanny)

I chose to homeschool not to protect them, nor to educate them because I wanted superior education for them...rather, I just wanted them to grow in an atmosphere of love and acceptance to be whatever it is they are supposed to be. I am shielding them from the negative energies that suck the life out of our children...dulls their ambition, their ability to dream, but at the same time, I don't want to protect them from life. It is a fine balance of give and take, that often needs re-adjusting.

I see my kids changing...and like most parents, my dream for them is to find their passion or calling early on and persue it. I am a facilitator, motivator and their biggest fans! But I also realize that children are hard work! I remember when we had Ben...Andy had just graduated, we were in debt up to our eyeballs, and I was working in a field that I loved! But, the minute I had Ben I became distracted and unable to focus on two things that I loved!

Obviously, Ben won out in the end...but only because we became pregnant nine months later with Sam. It was only then that Andy conceded there wasn't much point to working if all you did was work to pay babysitters. We chose to go into debt for our kids and I don't regret a moment of it as I was born to be a mother,their mother!

It has meant sacrifice...but that is what parenting is no matter what your style. I have discovered so many things about myself during the past 15 years that I never could have had I continued working. We would have been better off financially, but for our little family, we could never have been so close.

1 comment:

restyled home said...

What a gorgeous bunch! You're right: they are worth each and every sacrifice, more even...

Linda
xoxo